Tuesday, September 14, 2004
End of the eternal optimist.
I just fuckin realized that me being the ultimate optimist is just my escape from reality.
I always dreamed of making her mine, but now it is clear to me that would never happen.
Im so fuckin stupid,I hate myself for it. I should have known it before. Oh well,as my motto says, "That's life,shit happens.",and when shit comes it hits you hard. But still lessons can be learned. I learned to face reality, and end the crap I always had,that is optimism.
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6:10 PM