Tuesday, December 28, 2004
I Puked the Day Away
Sounds familiar right?It sounds like The Used buried Myself Alive right? Hell this happened to me for real. Last Sunday,December 26, I literally puked the day away. Why you may ask? Cause I ate too much the day before and I suffered indigestion. Hell yeah, it was the worst thing that happened to me. I felt like a bullimic bitch. My body wont accept any intake of food and I almost starved to death. And once again,last night I puked the night away too.Why?Cause of drinking too much,why,cause I want to get wasted for me not to see or identify that someone I loathe so much,hell,my foot looks better than you are.Just the thought of it makes me want to puke again,excuse me.hmmph,ghwaaaaaaaa.(Keyboard error:Soaked in barf)
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3:05 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Questions Answered
Thanks to my dear sister and her friends,my burning questions about women were answered. Haha,my question was,Why do women always want a guy who is kind, sweet,understanding and has a great sense of humor,pero hindi naman ganon yung sinasagot nila?They want a package deal guy;kind,sweet and understanding;the only persons I know of these characteristics are buddha and dalai lama. Hahah,now I know why. Because most women,I mean girls of my age,prefer patweetum guys,cause they aint mature enough. Older women prefer mature bad ass guys rather than adolecent lil boys. And I said to myself,I would only date older women now,yeah,damn right,cause it is so hard to find a mature woman of my age,damn patweetum chicks.
And while I was browsing my friendster account,I observed;the lower batches in my high school are so into UAAP.Almost all of their pics,they are with infamous players mostly from the school in katipunan with the big blue cockpit.Cant they wait till college?Freakin kids,get a life,quit dreaming.
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5:35 AM
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Wasted lil Me!
Im half drunk already,at this time,so early. It is just noche buena for those believers of Christmas. Haha,drinking alone is fun. I started at 7 pm and by 11 i have brought down 6 botlles already from different locations 4 at my house, and 2 at my friend's place. And now Fundador is served. What am I doing?Hell Im drinkin and enjoying the so called Christmas.Happy Hilodays!Cheers!
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4:49 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
No to Spongebob
Yesterday i watched a Spongebob episode in Nick. That was my first time to watch a whole episode. Damn it was stupid. So I went online to tell my shirt designer to make me an anti spongebob shirt. He agreed,next week I could see the sample,yeah. More enemies for me. He made the anti pucca and now the anti spongebob,youre the best arvin!
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4:51 PM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Dammit
Oh hell,I did something not so worth doing than what I was supposed to do,mind boggling right?So I thought I would write a poem bout it.Here it goes.....
Time Consumer,Time Consuming,Consume Me
I feel like this again
Even though I know its wrong
Why is it all coming back?
It was over for so long
I go and chase around again
Not minding the consequences at hand
There's no more hope of this Im sure
But its back to where it all began
I did it all,it gave me joy
But where the fuck is happiness?
Havent I learned enough?
Why am I looking for more?
I dont want to meddle with things
Im not that type of guy
I know shes with another man
I think I want to cry!
But Im just happy for them
The perfect couple that they have been
Oh yes Im a bitter person
I dont deserve to win.
Through bliss and all,I will stand tall
For that is where Im good at
Enjoy my life till the day I die
And just keep hoping she'll be my bride.
What a fuckin freaky poem.Oh well....
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5:28 PM
The so called Christmas is near,meaning a night of alcohol drinking and merry things to be done with my buddies. Oh yeah,the spirit of giving is in the air,I could smell it.(Background music:"Sa may bahay ang aming bati....")Patawad you bastards!
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7:32 AM
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Colgate Colgate!
my teeth are fixed,cleaned and a ok. Love your teeth,what a mouth!
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1:50 PM
Today will the day that I would quit smoking.Thanks Brother Earth for your creepy story.I dont want any freakin heart burn,lung cancer and death before my kids reach college.Plus what do i get from smoking,well there are good things,like the shotgun,yeah!So byebye puff.
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6:15 AM
Friday, December 17, 2004
Dangling Ballonies
I wasnt able to watch the Ob run in my dear campus,UP. Lucky for me,I dont want to see some dangling you-know-whats,damn Im a stright guy,even though I always say EMO is gay,im still straight,damn Im sure. The lantern parade was a whole lot cooler,especially the ones made by the College of Fine arts,the balete tree was great,and a friend of mine was part of it,I have his photos in my phone,for blackmailing purposes,hehe,just kidding hommie. And the Kapre was the best,he smokes weed man,with style,like i do,pinky in the air!
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5:02 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Blood and oil
I was having a nice night of beer drinking and internet surfing when I read a testimonila that made my blood boil.Why cant they say it to my face?I definitely cant cause they could create an excuse that would make me look like an idiot. I hope he's happy with what he has done,hell is burning hot.
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4:23 PM
My strong ice tastes funny. Maybe because I openned it in the morning and finished it during the night. One little two little three cans gone.Ahhh refreshing,now its time to study.
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2:05 PM
Monday, December 13, 2004
Like my new pair of shoe laces
Oh yeah i bought a new pair of shoe laces,the EMO type ons.Hell you'll love em for sure.I also bought myself a new jacket,I love em. And the coolest thing ever,NBA Live 2005,its the shit yo!Im so happy now.
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3:54 AM
Friday, December 10, 2004
Ripping the Pages
I decided not to post the last chapters of my novel because I realized what I was doing was wrong. Bakit? Kasi paninira lamang ang magagawa ko. Pagdating nya kasi, she started dissing me, indirectly nga lang, pero obvious yung mga parinig, they were from my text messages to her. I heard her say, “lame, yung parang walang kakwenta kwenta yung dahilan”, because I texted her what lame excuse does she have for being absent on her last class last Tuesday. Im sorry for being harsh and being too nosy, maybe I should just care for you less, and pumapasok ka pa rin naman eh pag gusto mo, so I shouldn’t be like that. She was the one who started to diss me, and of course yung knight in shining armor nya gumagatong. I loathe that guy, masyado syang maangas at nangengealam, sumisiste kasi. Narinig kong sinabi nya yung salitang “optimist,yung umaasa lang”. Gusto ko na sana syang suntukin kaso nga lang…
What happened made me want to continue my novel at gumanti sa kanila. Pero nung sumamba ako, everything changed. Yung poot napalitan ng awa at takot. Natakot akong masumpa, kasi di ko naisip na kapatid pala sila, tapos may poot ako sa kanila, napakarami ko na kasing pagkakasala, baka madagdagan pa. Naawa ako para sa kanila, hindi lang siguro nila gaanong naisip yung mga pinagagagawa nila. Hindi ko na lang sila papatulan, hindi ako magpapakababa sa lebel nila, hindi ba nila naisip na maari silang nagkakasala. Napakababa tuloy ng tingin ko sa kanya, at naawa din ako dun sa kanyang knight, para kasi syang demonyo na nagsusulsol sa pagkakasala. Sa halip na itama ang mali, kinokonsinte pa. I prayed na sana walang masumpa, nagkasala kasi ako, napoot ako sa kanila, at nakagagawa sila ng kasalanan dahil sa mga ginawa ko.
Most probably they would laugh at me if they would read this. Hindi ko kasi kayang sabihin sa kanila ng diretsahan, naduduwag ako. Baka sabihin lang nila na hindi ako yung pinaguusapan nila at nagfefeeling lang ako. Pwede naman kasi nilang sabihin sakin right at my face, pero nagparining lang sila, alam naman ng Ama kung ano ang nasa puso natin. I felt sad about this, ang lapit na ng pasalamat, tapos ganto yung mga nangyayari, baka hindi pagpapala kundi sumpa ang kamtin. They could diss me and make fun of me as long as they want, sana lang walang consequences na kapalit yung ginagawa nila kasi nakakaawa sila pag nagkaroon. Nakakalungkot isipin na ganon na o ganon pala talaga ang ugali nya, sayang sya. At para sa kanyang knight, sorry at naisipan kong banatan ka, mas kawawa lang ako pag ginawa ko yon. I just hope all of this would pass by. And I hope they could forgive me. Ho hum..
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9:12 PM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
The Happy Chapters Part
Chapter I
The End is the Beginning of the End
Drambuie thought it was just another series of days of nothingness for him. Things are not going so good for him. The semester is about to end and yet he felt blank. Till one day he realized a thing, a good friend could mean something more for him. At first he thought it was wrong, they had an agreement that thing not to happen. But it all changed one day when the cup of truth was spilled. He was happy now so filled with joy and hope. He did well in his acads and now he just needs to take care of his personal life. The age of darkness was over for him, hurray for our hero. And so he thought.
Chapter II
Scrimadors
Most people would think what Drambuie and his affiliates were doing in a cup of coffee session. Well it was one of the most helpful happenings to go to if you are with the right types of people. People who could keep their word and would really help you out. I think it all started when one day Drambuie said he had a problem, his comrades where there to listen and help, The Scrimadors. Originally of four members, Balotski counted on those people a lot. But when the sem was about to end, the meetings lessened, and so as Drambuie’s problems.
Chapter III
The Jerk That He Was
Drambuie was not the “man of my dreams” of the girl. He was even less than half the man that the girl wanted. He has quit smoking at that time, goes to school with messed up hair, has an ear piercing, drinks occasionally(yeah right), he has lied to her, left her out one time, and made a lot more mistakes. But he was very true and was madly in love with her. This was the first time he became that true to a girl. His friends noticed it, too. The first time they saw him search the whole town in the wee hours of the night in the middle of a drinking session just to find an e-load store for him be able to call her. He was always paranoid now, scared that she might get mad at him for another stupid thing he did. Scared that he might lose her even before he could have her. He was scared of this like death itself, the two are of the same level now. But still they seemed happy together at that time.
Chapter IV
End of the Semester
They would part for a long time now after a whapping celebration for the end of the sem. Drambuie enjoyed it a lot; he had the chance to be with her for two whole days. It was heaven for him. He kept thinking of this and her. The things she does to him that makes him love her. He was now living in ecstasy. Not the drugs dear readers, he was a clean man. All the loving he could give, he gave it to her. He went out a lot just to keep himself occupied, to prevent himself from going insane due to missing her so much. Damn, Drambuie case was pretty serious now. Days passed, they were happy, especially him; he was full of hope, love and joy. But he found out something that would have made him really mad, but hate stirs up the problem and love forgives all offenses, he just let the crap pass as if nothing wrong happened. Yep readers in short, he was an underdog, hahahaha. A new semester was rapidly approaching, he had no problems, he was happy……..
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9:35 AM
Foreword
This novel, well not actually a novel, could be fictitious but some are based on real life experiences of the author. Please be cautious of the things that you would be able to read because some of them may be very offensive. This is due to the author’s perpetual frustrations because of the various but constant falls that happened in his now miserable life. If you think that some parts are related to you and you mind being part of my composition, fuck you, that’s what you get for being too nosy and reading someone else’s blogspot. Just run to the nearest church, confess your sins, and everything will be all right. If you are to read the composition, kindly put a comment because I need some of my readers’ feedback to improve my work. Comments will only be entertained in the blogspot and not outside in the real world. If you have read it and you didn’t put a comment, hell with you, you freaking lazy bastard. I might die just writing this crap, my blood pressure is already rising just typing this foreword. I dedicate this to my friends who understand me and remain neutral all the time, not siding to anyone. If you think I’m wrong by writing this, fuck you, this is my blogspot.
Buddies, dude na hindi punk na hindi emo(nameless na nga lang), brother earth and rey, julie anne morene, you guys are the best, to you I give my trust. And all the other people, I’ll thank you somehow, just stay neutral.
I will triumph, I’m the stiffmyster.
Balotski
You have hit the crack pot
I have snapped again
It feels good.
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2:30 AM
Saturday, December 04, 2004
The Power of My Guitar and Pen
Because of my condition now,after all that happened in my freakin super sad life,I am prepared to write a whole lot of songs for my band.Hmm,the only problem is,Emo is my music genre,but i think death songs are the ones I could write,heck.Hmm,oh well.EMO is so gay,Im so EMO.
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6:00 PM
Dammit I wrote something very long,then a glitch came.Dont want to repeat it.Fuckin pc.
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5:50 PM
Another day of no classes.Oh shit this is not what I want to write about.
Its another day of not having Lauren. Oh yeah i could write her name,this is my blogspot,hell if anyone cares.
I admit it,I miss her. It seems Im still not over her yet.Yeah I know what you think,(that im fuckin stupid),I guess I am.She is Ms. Smiling Eyes.Dammit,every night I slap myself to sleep.I keep telling myself,get over her man,you're Balong,you're the man dude,you put the egg in the basket,you bit the apple baby,you could have another girl.But someone inside of me says in a ghostly voice,there is hope man,wait for the right time man,you could still have her in the future man,she's everythin for you man,you need her man,smoke weed man.Bob Marley is visiting my sleep,damn dude,thats spooky shit.
I have a big date pa naman on saturday.Just a girl I saw in the streets of my friend's town.She's cute,a bit young though,and not that good in english. In short,she's nothin compared to lauren. What am I goin to do with her,I dont know.What if in the middle of the date I would call her "ehy lauren",damn that would be funny.Maybe the girl would bitch around and say,who's lauren you jerk!hahahahahah,i could imagine it already.Pano kung sagutin na agad ako nung girl,even me not being serious.Damn,she would be just my past time.What a waste.
Oh well,bahala na.She agreed to go out with me,I cant chicken out now.Cool Stiffmyster Balong.
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3:40 AM
Friday, December 03, 2004
Damn Cold!
I woke up very early today just to eat breakfast and find out that there are no classes.No classes,am I dreaming?Arnold Clavio verified it,no classes. Damn Im so happy,I have two quizzes today,both in my Chem 16 classes.back to sleep for me,then I woke up by 10. Hmmmm,what should I do first?I saw my guitar and my newly fixed pc,and I told myself,its Taking Back Sunday time.I skipped band practice yesterday,hehe sorry my dear bandmates,I have better things to do,like watch NBA. Another battle of the Bands on wed,sa PSBA,sobrang lapit sa UP,hope my dear orgmates would watch it.So they could see how crazy I am on stage,they would hear me sing like they havent heard before.Im EMO,Im gay,stop rockism.Im cold.
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5:50 AM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
The Fucked UP Teen
Yeah blogspot,now Im back.You're my best bud.I dont have to write on that logbook again,lots of people are making a fuzz about my entries.Like the latst entry,do you relly think I would beat someone up.Hell no,but on case to case basis,but still no.It would only be a waste of my time and strength.
Im really fucked up. I was happy back then,now life is the pits. If this continues I would be bald. Dammit,I love my hair.
Why cant I have her,I was very true and serious. But as I always say,thats life shit happens.
Im scared,what if I no longer believe in serious relationships. I no longer believe in the term "best friend" because someone failed me back then. And now this.I promised myself to respect women and always be serious when it comes to relationships. But now,aahhhh shit. There are lots of women to get hooked up with and fuck around with,but Im not that type of guy to do such things.What if i turn into one?
Oh well,what she wanted happend and now I dont know what I want.Poor little me. At least she's happy,thats whats important.
There are many good people in this world,pero mas marami ang evil.I might join them.
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4:00 AM