Saturday, October 16, 2004
My stupid,poor @ss!
Im so ashamed of myself for what I did to her. I was like goodbye Im outta here. But she sat there just lookin at me leave. I didnt even kissed her goodbye. I promised I would do anythin for her,but what I just did was horrible. I want to kick my own sorry ass. Even my sister scolded me,what a great jerk I am. My apologies are not enough,must do somethin bout this. If I am to make her mine, I must be a better man.And I did looked like a demon beside her,now she's away,I just stare at her beauty. She's so pure,so innocent,so beautiful. Damn I really love her,paranoia kicks in again.
And hey,I didnt smoke tonight,not even a single stick,not even a puff. Love your lungs.
i loathed you @
1:01 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Nothin would change,NOT!
I recently realised that someone I used to like a lot is avoiding me. And a great friend saved me from the intense paradox boggling my noggin. He told me it was true. Haha,I finally became The Grinch!Im not mad or anything,it just made me think,am I that creepy?I know people who are really creepy,for example is a guy I would like to call as Jam Master J.And another question popped out,am I like him already? (Chill down my spine)Damn,let me think of the things I did:I used to text her cheesy quotes and some stupid questions,and hmmmmm,I barely talk to her,even through chat very rare,I dont know her phone number,I think that's probably it.I need to be half amazing to think about this.
Just finished another cigarette,damn,I promise never to smoke again. Maybe I'll try doobie,haha,as Pareng Bob would say"Take a puff and pass it to the left hand side."Kaya ako hikain eh,Im such a bad person,wait I am The Grinch!
By the way,advanced happy 17th birthday,I was bout to give a gift but that would make me a lot creepier,hehe.
P.S.
You're prettier without the make up and all.
i loathed you @
11:15 AM