Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Hohum
"I cant be wihout you,as a matter of fact,ohhhh,I want you back."
This shit keeps on playing in my head,I cant get rid of it.
Do I really want her back?
Last sunday morning,after getting wasted and attending the fair,there I went out again with her,just like we used to do months ago.
It was like something new to me,it felt different.
I think I should be happy having a chance to be with her again,just the two of us,but no,this time,ahh crap.
I remember I taught her to maximize her resources during the time i was not yet into her and lots of em are trying to date her,but now what I taugth her was also used on me.
Here's the story......
I was so fucking tired and bored of watching the fair saturday night,I dont know why,must be because of the exam I had earlier.I went back to the tambayan just to find myself caught in another belly-busting-drinking-session with alumnis,yeah,they were fun to be with,I was even hoping for a hook up with one of em but Im still young,ehehe.
Went inside the tambayan o rest,have a little sleep,but I cant,cause she's in there.We played and talked a bit,even discussed why she was smoking now.(Well I just saw her holding a lit cigarette,that means she tried it)
Blah blah balh,har har har,this is what happened to me,what the fuck happened to you?
Because I was the only person steady enough to walk with her,she asked me to accompany her to the comfort room in Vinzons.Then I got hungry,and we both agreed to have breakfast and get some of her stuff,because they're going trecking later that day.
I wont give much details of what happened next but I'll put it this way,we were together but me being so awkward of whats happening.Many things were running in my head.
But there was nothing wrong with what I did,Im just a super kind guy,bullshit.
I dont know,the boy in me wants her,but the lurking devil says no,you've had enough of a girl turning your once miserable life into a more unescapable piehole of crap.
Damn,Im really confused now..
i loathed you @
4:55 PM