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Saturday, May 19, 2007
But I Wish You Were
You're not mad but I wish you were only mad at me. For I felt a different chill when we parted ways a while ago. The same chill i felt 2 years ago. I knew there was something wrong when I kissed you and I didnt feel the warmth. I knew there was something wrong when I asked you if you still love me and you didnt know what to reply. I knew there was something wrong when I saw your eyes,cause your eyes gave you away.
2 years ago,I would have been drinkin meself to death and smoking me lungs out because of this. I'll try to kill meself before the man in me dies. Unfortunately,the man in me always dies first. Right now I have more than enough alcohol to knock me out till next week,I should be doing the same right now,however am not,cause drinkin would get me nowhere,instead what i want to do now is pray,for Him to still give me strength,and ask Him if I could still have her.Its amazing how long it took me to have her but He could take it away in an instant.
Its not you who doesnt deserve me,its me who doesnt deserve you. And I guess you finally found that out.
I almost beat the crap outta me classmate in judo,I still want to beat the crap outta him now,I was already in a bad mood after what happened then that retarded added to me problems,thank heavens me classmates held me back,actually it took 4 or 5 of em to hold me back,at times like this,I am at kill mode.
Now you know when I write. I write when am scared,am scraed of losing you again,and killing the man in me again. I write when am sad,what I feel now is worse than that. I write when am mad,I dont know how much more I have to give up before I could trully have you for right now I know you still have doubts. I write because I think I found out you no longer love me.....
"You know you do,you kill me well" Ohio is For Lovers-Hawthorne Heights